I WISH I COULD EAT YOUR CANCER
Probably Jesus is in a hospital bed with an intravenous drip that is full of blood and a fetus. There is a black crucifix under the bed, printed into the hospital floor. The room is surrounded by grey curtains. Kurt Cobain, Krist Novoselic and the drummer seem to be waiting for Jesus to wake up. Kurt looks bored.
There’s a poppy field with clear blue sky. Two crows on a crucifix that has a ladder against it. Jesus now has a Santa hat on. He places a poppy into the field of poppies. Jesus climbs the ladder to the cross and is now crucified. There are now three crows on the crucifix. Jesus blinks and looks around to the sky as the screen turns white.
Kurt, Krist and the drummer play as the band Nirvana. Nirvana plays in the poppy field and the sky has now turned a reddish pink. The crucifix no longer contains Jesus and there are two crows perched on each side of it. Close up of Kurt squeezing his face. Kurt continues to sing the chorus with close ups of his face interspersed with the band playing. His eyes widen. A crow joins in on the chorus singing ‘Hey, wait!’ on a red background. The crow’s face is close to the screen. More close ups of Kurt singing and smiling sarcastically and playing with Nirvana.
Amongst the poppy fields is a young girl in a white outfit, possibly a KKK garment. She is staring at a fetus hanging from a tree. A large lady with grey wings is walking on the spot and reaching out to a tree full of hanging fetuses. Her skin has been removed except for her face. The young girl is jumping up and down trying to reach a fetus from a tree of fetuses.
The sky is blue again. Jesus is still crucified with two crows perched on his cross and is now wearing a religious head piece instead of a Santa hat. The young girl skips past him. She is now looking up at Jesus and jumps, trying to reach up. She skips past him again and the large lady stares at us with red sky and crucifix in the background.
The sky is now reddish pink again and Nirvana launch into the chorus again. More close ups of Kurt singing exuberantly. He kicks the ground and slaps Krist in the face while they are playing their instruments. The young girl stares at us with poppies behind her. She throws a poppy into the field. After finishing the chorus, a blurred Kurt runs a hand over his face.
The young girl’s Klan hat flies away. Butterflies fly past a crucifix with reddish pink sky, followed soon by the Klan hat. The hat falls into a red puddle. The puddle changes to black and white as a forest and a river grow inside the puddle. The Klan hat has now turned black and the puddle is red again. The young girl is now at the hospital in a black Klan outfit. Jesus is in the hospital bed again. There is a fetus in the intravenous drip connected to Jesus.
Now Jesus and the young girl have disappeared. Kurt is in the room now, playing a chord on his guitar. The guitar is plugged into an amplifier that is now connected to the intravenous drip. There is the young girl in the room again staring at us. Kurt, Krist and the drummer are sat in the hospital room again and Kurt swings an old style time piece back and forth, like a hypnotist. The young girl touches the hospital bed which now has Jesus in it once more.
The large lady walks down a path surrounded by trees. We now see Kurt lying with his eyes closed in the poppy field. There is a white flash and we see another angle of Kurt on the ground. The large lady walks towards us. Kurt is now covered in fog as he lays on the ground. The young girl, now in white again, looks at Kurt and then back towards the large lady. A poppy falls toward Kurt’s body. We see Jesus pushing a wheelchair along a path, past the crucifix towards a forest.
The young girl now pushes a wheelchair along the path. The time piece, which appears to have a whistle attached, falls through Kurt’s sleeping body. The young girl opens her eyes and looks at us. Blood appears to start flowing through a white sheet (or possibly a blouse)
Pink curved walls house a box with Kurt, Krist and the drummer inside. There is a black heart attached to the box with windows, like a skyscraper. Kurt is spun around in circles by his band members.
Nirvana are now in a pink room with white stars on the walls and a bed. Kurt swings back and forth on a rocking chair singing. Krist and the drummer are in the background. We see the young girl again – she is in this room alone. In one shot she has a heart shaped box. Kurt swings the time piece on the bed. The young girl turns around in the room to see an empty bed. Meanwhile, Kurt falls off his rocking chair while singing. Still in the pink room, Kurt sings the remainder of the song. The drummer pulls a stupid face behind him. As we hear feedback Kurt smiles, breathes heavily and then frowns.
We are back in the hospital from the start of the video. The band are still waiting for Possible Jesus to wake up. Krist opens the grey curtains and the screen turns white. The End.
- Anton Corbijn directed the video. He also directed the Joy Division biopic ‘Control’
- The video was mainly Kurt Cobain’s idea and he designed the treatment for it.
- The film was colourised to make it look similar to the Wizard of Oz. It was filmed in colour then changed to black and white and recoloured to look like technicolor film.
- After Lana Del Ray covered ‘Heart Shaped Box’ Courtney Love tweeted that song was about her vagina.
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